The On The Road to Greater Wellness…or Fuck Me, I Just Want to Feel Better Blog
Pain. All day. Every day. Sometimes mild. Often times severe. On occasion – screw it, I give up and am going back to bed debilitating.
I can’t remember a pain free day. Not since my first pregnancy and the birth of my son in 1996.
1996.
If you suck at math like I do, 2020 – 1996 = 24 years of physical pain.
24 years x 365 days per year = 8760 days of physical pain.
8760 days (give or take a day depending on when this shit started), plus 1 for each sunset I live to witness, add that up – and yep – no matter how bad you are with numbers, that’s a lot of pain.
A LOT of pain.
And a (proverbial) pain in the ass, but that’s a whole other blog right there.
So, why do I feel the need to put this out there? Why share my pain journey with you? Why now? Well, as the saying goes, sharing is caring. Also, I’m turning fifty.
FIFTY!
The big 5 – 0.
The diabolical plan was to be in the best shape of my life when I hit fifty.
The truth is, I’m not. In fact, I’m so far from the best shape of my life, both mentally and physically, that I’m freaking out a little bit. Okay. Maybe more than a little bit.
Maybe, just maybe, I’m freaking out a lot.
For a lot of different reasons.
So, here’s the thing. I’m ready to be fifty. More than that, I’m ready to share my chronic pain story. All of it. The good. The bad. The ugly.
And hey, I’m a writer. Writing is what I do. And for a lot of different reasons, I temporarily put that passion on the shelf, too. More on that later. For now, enough is enough. Time to get back to it and to set some new challenges and some new goals.
This is it…
The challenge – be brave, be bold, be honest, and finally, FINALLY, have the balls to say, I’m not fine. I’m not okay. My fucking knees hurt, my hips hurt, my back hurts, my shoulders hurt, my brain hurts…you get the idea.
The goal – be the one in charge of my mental and physical well-being and to share my failures, progress, and successes with you. Seems simple enough, right? Well, stick close my lovelies…cause I’m about to go twelve rounds with my chronic pain issues, and all bets are off as to who will come out on top.
Hope you come along for the ride, cause I’m positive I’m gonna need all the support I can get. And if my words can help one person, one day, with maybe one laugh along the way, well then shit, maybe – just maybe – this will have been worth the mental effort and the sore finger joints from typing for too damn long.
Until the next blog – peace out pain sufferers.
Current pain level 6/10.
Can’t wait to read more and follow along on your journey.
Thanks for the support! I know a certain chronic pain expert I’m going to call on for free advice!
Love to do a guest blog sometime 🙂
We’re on the same chronic pain page!
Love to know if there is a medical evidence that chronic pain runs in families?
I have never looked at my pain levels on a day to day level! Well I am going to start thanks. Love your blog looking forward to the next one.
Thanks for the support! I find keeping track of my pain level helps to keep me aware of how I’m feeling in the moment. Should I shovel the drive. Hmmm, pain level at 7. Nope. Not gonna happen!
Congratulations on publishing your first blog. Great read! Me likes the .com side of you, too! Ver-ah nice!
Glad you are doing you – it’s what I like best about you! I’m just say’in! ;0)
Thanks, Suzanne! I’ve always got spoon time for you!
Amazing work EDITH, looking forward to following along on your journey! Love your level of honesty and humour!
Thanks, Jeanette! More to come!
Looking forward to it 👍🏻!!!!!!!!!!
As someone who has suffered from chronic pain for the majority of my life it was helpful to read your story. I love reading your honest and funny blogs, I find them very helpful and motivating. I look forward to following your journey. Love the website!
Thanks for the wonderful feedback! I hope by sharing our pain stories and experiences we may be able to help one or two others navigate theirs.